The last two weeks of waiting have felt very long. The only info or feedback to go on is from A – I wake up each morning and ask how she’s doing. Not the normal Good Morning question, I want to know what’s she’s feeling or not feeling. Is she tired? nauseous? in pain? hungry? sleepy? She’s my only link to what’s happening.
I’ve kept a reserved mindset – I call it Cautiously Optimistic. I think it’s somewhat of a protective approach in case something goes wrong – which is a very real possibility given we are in the very early stages. I’m worried that if I give in to the thrill of the excitement it could make things harder later.
But I just can’t stop thinking that this is a once in a lifetime opportunity — our first kid. You don’t get to recreate these moments. Am I missing out on a something? Am I going to regret my cautious mindset?