Gametes In Love

S2 starts daycare tomorrow.

I’ll be honest, I feel a little conflicted about it. I’m both excited and sad. Packing his stuff to take to daycare felt like one of the saddest things ever. It was a mix between “time is going by too fast” and “I feel like I’m cheating”. Let me explain that last part.

While S2 starts daycare tomorrow, I won’t be returning to work until mid-March. THAT makes me excited as hell. I have some personal projects that I’ve been putting off for the last year that I can finally focus on. I’ll go and use the facial/massage gift certificates that have been piling up over the last few holidays. I’ll be able to pull G out of daycare and spend some much needed 1:1 time with him and do some adventure outings. On my list are the Monterrey Bay Aquarium, San Jose Children’s Discovery Museum and whatever else strikes my fancy. S2 on the other hand will get to start daycare before stranger anxiety kicks in, which will hopefully make these first few weeks easier on us all.

Yet, I’m also sad, and… well… guilty. I feel that if I’m staying home, he should be too, since I’m staying home because of him. Also, G was 4 months old when he started daycare. S2 should have the same time with me too.

So yeah, tomorrow will be interesting. I’ve told myself though, that when I start missing my monkey too much I’ll go bring him home.

Meanwhile, I’ve been prepping G too. I told him that his little brother will be going to school with him tomorrow. I told him which room he’ll be in and the teachers he’ll be with. S later asked him if he would check up on his brother. G’s response was “No! S2 in baby room” But he did promise to be a good big brother to him.

So… wanna take bets if I’ll be crying tomorrow on my drive home all alone?

How far along: 13w
Weight: 126.8lb.
Sleep: Pretty good
Gender: We find out in July!!! Or at least we hope this one will cooperate enough to let us find out.
Movement: None yet, but I think in another few weeks we’ll be getting some baby bubbles
Feeling: So-so. More good days than bad days, which I’m thankful for
What I am looking forward to: Telling work this week. Above anything else, it means I don’t have to wear the same 5 outfits anymore 🙂
Weekly Wisdom: Toddler climbing on preggie belly doesn’t feel good
Milestones: End of the first trimester baby! I don’t know of a better milestone than that. My manager and I also discussed my time off. I’ll be out of office from 11/8-3/28. Pretty excited on that one.
Food cravings: I’m getting into my fruit craving phase. Right now melon sounds good. Also, still in a meat aversion phase. Anything that is not chopped up beyond recognition just makes my stomach churn. What do you want to bet this kid will be A+ blood type?
Best moment this week: Seeing the wee one during the NT scan. Also, sneaking up on it with the doppler at home. I got it… for a whopping second before it swam off to non-doppler detectable land.
Fetal development:
Fingerprints have formed on your baby’s tiny fingertips, its veins and organs are clearly visible through its still-thin skin, and its body is starting to catch up with its head — which makes up just a third of its body size now. If we’re having a girl, she now has more than 2 million eggs in her ovaries. Your baby is almost 3 inches long (the size of a medium shrimp) and weighs nearly an ounce.